I went to Dali, Yunnan Province alone last year. It was summer weather.
At that time, I was living in a hostel run by a friend's sister. I had just finished an extremely exhausting relationship and was in a bad mood, except for the time to go out to play.
Most of the time is to help my sister in the inn, or sit lazily in the attic for a cup of tea and look out at the sun for a while.
One afternoon I was bored to ask my sister for tea. I went down the stairs and saw a pair of young people standing in the yard. They went up to inquire and learned that they were going to stay in the hotel. So after everything was arranged, it was noon on the third day to see them again.
Lazy at noon, he sat on his old site and took a nap. Squinting his eyes, he saw a figure twinkling in front of him. He opened his eyes and found that it was the woman of the young couple who stayed in the shop that day.
She looked at me and smiled happily, as if sorry to disturb my comfortable day, and then said, "it's a beautiful day today, but I'm not feeling well, so my boyfriend went to see his brother alone."
I didn't answer at that time. I smiled and poured her a cup of tea. She seemed to understand my kindness and opened her chair and sat down. So a few words turned into a half-day conversation. .
The girl's name is "Jasmine". The fragrant flowers are very suitable for the hot sunny weather. My boyfriend, surnamed Chen, met at a club activity in the university.
When we first met, it was early spring, when community organizations rode bikes together to go hiking. Molly followed slowly, and the belated boy found her company, but nothing happened since then. The re-intersection of the two is that in the later cooperation in the work of the community, there is a lot of closeness in the relationship between them, and it is precisely because of this that there is a later entanglement.
Molly had never been in love before, and when the boy confessed, she hesitated, but agreed.
However, some people are very flexible, but they are stupid in love; they are kind to their friends, but they are like a different person in love. It is different from everything promised and expected. After being together, the relationship between the two people went wrong and changed beyond recognition.
No matter how good a relationship is, you have to protect it attentively, but one does not have sense of security, and the other is not good at expressing cherished words, such as gold. In such a relationship, misunderstandings, misunderstandings, and estrangement are like a surging tide under a calm current.
"and then we broke up. Two people should be happy together, occasionally quarrel, but the tone is always sunny, isn't it? At that time, I thought he didn't love me, and he didn't want to spend time with me, nor would he understand me. I don't want to bother to rely on my hard work. " Jasmine took a sip of tea and smiled a little sheepishly. "but after breaking up, I found that I liked him more than I thought."
Do not want to know that you are indifferent to me but also want to warm you, do not want you have abandoned me thousands of miles away, I also traveled mountains and rivers to see you. Fair and equal love and being loved is the love I want.
After the breakup, Jasmine is very stubborn and would rather strangle the unsure love in her heart than keep a low profile and love humbly. The constant intersection of life made her struggle for a year, and Molly's mood improved only after graduation when she was completely out of sight of each other.
Molly's life is getting normal and everything is getting better and better, but she will occasionally regret it and wonder if she scared him directly on her own initiative. maybe he likes reserved girls. Or maybe the boy was just trying to flirt with her on a whim. .
I once liked a person at a simple age, and later, ah, I didn't know whether I was in love or a friend in his mouth. Never said to forget this thing, only pretending to be indifferent and secretly miss the heart.
"maybe it was really a bad fate, and then we met again." Jasmine put down the teacup and looked at the garden in the yard. I filled her teacup with water and looked at her smile.
In 2018, Molly went to Beijing on business to meet clients. Mr. Chen, Andy chen, it's him. There is probably nothing more bloody and embarrassing than this.
Four years gone, this is not a long time, because unwilling, regret, regret, and can not catch up with the miss, has become like a lifetime away.
Jasmine's shoulder-length hair is getting longer and thinner than before. The moment she saw him, Molly suddenly understood that if you really love someone, no matter how far he finally goes, as long as he stands in front of you again, you can't stop loving him.
Love is as hopeless as cholera when it comes all of a sudden. Giving up a person you like very much is a self-redemption, but since it is redemption, how can it be easy?
"how are you these days?" The boy spoke first and couldn't find other words to express his feelings of reunion, but he was worried that you had given others your heart now.
"your husband must love you very much. Look at how you are doing." I don't know if you are married, but I don't want you to know that I can't let you go. I've lost face and can't show it too obviously.
"are you alone? As it happens, I'm alone, too. I'll do my best. I'll take you to dinner. " The invitation is simple, but there is a drum in your heart, and if you hear it, you will know that expectation and uncertainty make it beat violently.
Lightly, as if relieved, put away the simple paranoia when she was young and angry, and Jasmine agreed. Not only promised him to eat, but also agreed to his marriage proposal a year later. .
"aren't you afraid he'll play with you again?" At this point, I continued to add water to her teacup, which had already bottomed out, and expressed my worries.
"We are not the same as we used to be." She replied, smiling at me.
Missed four years, 1460 days and nights, 35040 hours.
In four years, he put aside his temper, no longer wayward and naughty, no desire, no mind, conscientious and conscientious, only focused on running about.